hwo is everyone ? i havent blogged in a long time on here .. i have been going through some things with a friend of mine .. well i thought that she was a friend . turns out that i am only good when no one else is around . i do not like to be around people like that .. this so called friend of mine sent me a upsetting email and said that i changed and why havent i called her and such . i feel like i am back in school again . she said that she had to get a few things off of her chest before i make her lose her job. i told her not to blame me if she looses her job because i am not the blame for it . well anyway .. i realy do not know what had ahppened . all of a sudden we were really close and then the past 2-3 months , we drifted apart . i didnt do anything . i also told her that i did not like the way that she has treated me . well , needless to say , when she sent me the email , she told me to call her . well , i have been trying to call her and she is not responding to me . personally she has alot of issues to deal with and i am just a scap goat . i hate that .. i do not have a sign on me that says , take all of your problems out on me . i wrote to her back after  i thought long and hard about it . and since then i have not gotten a response . well i have to get this off of my mind . i do not need this and deal with family issues . thank you all for listening to me rant and speak my mind .

well , i have been suffering with depression for a while and it seems to not want to let up .. first it was with putting my cat to sleep now it is with a very close friend of mine .. well i thought that we were close .. a while back i found out that he was in the hospital so i was talking to his brother everyday to find out how he was doing .. well now that he is home , i have imed him numerous times and sent out emails to him and he will not respond to me ... i dont know what else i could do .. i guess i should leave things alone and let him have time to come to me .. what do you think ? there is just so much going on in my life right now that i needed some one to talk to about it .. oh well .. well have a nice day everyone and try to keep cool if you are having temps like we are here in the northeast .. it is 90 today .. for the next couple of days it is supposed to be even hotter .. take care ..

 Pandorasbox